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i am so goddamn young
&& born decades too late
&& silly beatnik chick
&& rock'n'roll addict
&& wannabe poet
writer & dylanist & bookworm & painter & nerdy lesbian
& brainiac amour with patti smith

21 years old, helsinki, finland
♥: patti smith, bob dylan, the rolling stones, david bowie, rock'n'roll, allen ginsberg, beat generation, sixties, movies, literature, poetry, philosophy, arts, smoking, blues, writing, tom waits, leonard cohen, quentin tarantino, ray loriga, jean genet, greta garbo, henry miller etc.

it was almost two weeks without posting again, i’m sorry. in a way stuff has been going on, but to be honest, not really. i’m just drifting away from most things. anyway, recently:
- i turned 23. v gave me a really sweet gift, and a even sweeter letter. it made me cry. (my father ignored my birthday the second year in a row though, which made me a bit sad. )
- school is here again, and i’m really stressed out all the time. the future terrifies me. i’ve had a few bad break-downs, but my darling has been there for me and i guess i’m doing better now.
- yesterday i sent applications for changing my last name & my middle name, and if they will be accepted, i will finally get my mother’s maiden name - i’ve been wanting this for years !
- i’m down with flu right now and i feel like shit
- basically i’ve just been watching malcolm in the middle and reading lesbian porn blogs for a few weeks now. not simultaneously, but you know.

(Source: euxinus, via firecats)

  • Me: do you like rough sex
  • Them: yeah lip biting is great
  • Me: no you don't understand
divadietrich:

Marlene Dietrich, by Cecil Beaton.

divadietrich:

Marlene Dietrich, by Cecil Beaton.

(via irisrukka)

surrealist-phantoms:

Claude Cahun - Surrealist Assemblage, 1936

surrealist-phantoms:

Claude Cahun - Surrealist Assemblage, 1936

(via milakitu)

there’s a girl who lives in the same neighbourhood as i, and i’ve taken the same bus with her fo about million times. at some point she also started to work in a secondhand clothes store i quite often visit, which is in an another part of town. i’m not usually good with faces, but she has caught my attention with her extraordinary style and overall pretty. i’m creepy like that, i notice some people and look at them a lot. 
we have never talked.
and i think i just saw her on my tumblr dashboard. i’m sure of it, actually.

internet is so weird!

tierradentro:

Egon Schiele posing before his painting “Encounter”, 1914. Photo by Anton Josef Trčka.

tierradentro:

Egon Schiele posing before his painting “Encounter”, 1914. Photo by Anton Josef Trčka.

(via milakitu)

tajijoseph:

Queen Kahlo

tajijoseph:

Queen Kahlo

(via irisrukka)

demonrunningwild replied to your post: “you haven’t posted for over two weeks, are you dead?”:
This has been also my problem lately. Usually it eases the stress when scrolling around web, but sometimes even that is too stressing. strenght, dear <3

exactly ! stuff like writing to my tumblr, looking at nice pictures on my dash or finding and editing pictures for the patti smith blog has been my stress release and a way of relaxing, and now even that has felt like a responsibility - sometimes it feels like even netflix is demanding something from me. it sounds silly, but it’s true. responsibilities are everywhere, if you’re too good at finding them…. this summer i found a wonderful facebook community and started posting and commenting and made people laugh, got promoted to an admin and bam, suddenly that too is work. last year i was addicted to this multiplayer strategy game on my phone and got really involved in the community, got ranked up ‘til i was a general of our team and it got so stressful i had to stop playing and sell my account…. why do i do this to myself, idk. sorry for rambling.

witchofpositano:

Vali Myers by Derek Ridgers. Frankfurt, 1980.

witchofpositano:

Vali Myers by Derek Ridgers. Frankfurt, 1980.

my boys

my boys

(Source: old-rock-music, via milakitu)

(Source: hardtodefinee, via firecats)

efficientenough:

poopflow:

*oitnb theme song plays* *runs 3 miles* *takes 2 hour nap* *goes out to dinner* *comes back and takes a shower* *episode starts*

you’ve got time

(via grade-a-homo)

Anonymous said: you haven't posted for over two weeks, are you dead?

thanks for noticing, i’m alive though. i haven’t been feeling very well and while trying to cope with irl things that feel overwhelming, even tumblr has felt like work to me.